Rosita doesn't mind the arrangement, since it puts her bad arm on the inside between them; it gives her range to bring her good arm up if he tries anything, but lets her guard them both from her side anyway if someone else tried something. She can make it work. She always makes it work.
"I'm beginning to wonder if I lied about it to all those people all this time too," she mutters, because apparently everything doesn't just stop. But even if he doesn't remember what they talked about, she does. She remembers him coming out with that out of nowhere.
She's able to feel it, now. "Probably for the best. I won't say I wasn't myself at the time, but I will say I was the smallest version of me. Not one I'd want most people forming an opinion on."
It's not shame that makes her say this, not for a moment. It's concession that even though she doesn't regret who she becomes when survival is on the table and she can't be made to, she knows it's not sustainable once the crisis is over.
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Date: 2022-10-18 10:02 am (UTC)From:"I'm beginning to wonder if I lied about it to all those people all this time too," she mutters, because apparently everything doesn't just stop. But even if he doesn't remember what they talked about, she does. She remembers him coming out with that out of nowhere.
She's able to feel it, now. "Probably for the best. I won't say I wasn't myself at the time, but I will say I was the smallest version of me. Not one I'd want most people forming an opinion on."
It's not shame that makes her say this, not for a moment. It's concession that even though she doesn't regret who she becomes when survival is on the table and she can't be made to, she knows it's not sustainable once the crisis is over.