She's thought about that a lot, how the things that hurt her most before were the things that helped her live to now; how now, she's found out it's fairly common for someone to assume she had training before she had to face the world without grocery stores or cars or anywhere reliable to live.
"It was one of the few things I could feel good about," she agrees, voice dull. "I wasn't good for a lot, especially early on, but I could suffer better than a lot of people around me. I could take it and get back up. When it felt like no one would ever be happy again, I had that, and it made me feel something like good."
She shakes her head. "It's not a mystery, why it still feels good now. We know, now."
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Re: cw: abuse mention
Date: 2023-09-27 02:09 pm (UTC)From:"It was one of the few things I could feel good about," she agrees, voice dull. "I wasn't good for a lot, especially early on, but I could suffer better than a lot of people around me. I could take it and get back up. When it felt like no one would ever be happy again, I had that, and it made me feel something like good."
She shakes her head. "It's not a mystery, why it still feels good now. We know, now."